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I am Kamy, while Reily is actually a made up nameI get 1 year older on the 3rd September every year, but no one really remembers because no one really cares
Currently taking up photography as my hobby but I do not really dedicate much time to it, but I am still loving it
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- Learning Korean- A pet bunny
- Travel overseas early
- Get braces
- Get a Mini Cooper
Monday, July 26, 2010
@ 12:00 AM
I really don't know how much longer I can hold it for.
Putting on a facade just to show everyone that I am fine because I do not want people to worry about me and I don't want to make my problems known to too many people.
I bottle them up in myself.
I bear the stress and pain all by myself.
Others would never believe the side of my story and instead, they would even reprimand me.
They blame me, scold me and some even condemn me.
I have to bear with it all because fighting back do me no good.
All these had changed me. From a bubbly person to someone who have low self-esteem, low confidence and someone who chose not to talk too much.
I do not know how to appreciate care and concerns anymore, neither do I know how to love.
Sometimes it became so painful that it just makes me think that my existence is a suffering to other people. It would be so much better if I wasn't around...
People thinks that I am weird, but there is nothing I can do to change their views.
Because even my family condemned me, so what is there to fight back for?
I am very tired now, I want to give up holding on,
I want to let go of everything.....
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Don't see a need for it since no one is reading me anyways affiliates
don't leave yet
So this is me swallowing my prideStanding in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
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