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About me
I am Kamy, while Reily is actually a made up nameI get 1 year older on the 3rd September every year, but no one really remembers because no one really cares
Currently taking up photography as my hobby but I do not really dedicate much time to it, but I am still loving it
wishlist
- Learning Korean- A pet bunny
- Travel overseas early
- Get braces
- Get a Mini Cooper
Thursday, February 25, 2010
@ 11:38 PM
After being commented that I 'phail' as a blogger who stalk others blog but never update mine, so I shall move out from the 'phail' category and blog something brief.Will be having my final paper for my year 1, which marks an end to my Freshman year, tomorrow. Despite revising it since afternoon, nothing seems to get into my head, and the information seems jumbled up.
Oh well, hopefully after a good rest and some revisions tomorrow morning would help to sort things out better, otherwise, I am really screwed.
Can't wait for the talk and getting the free access card to Sentosa!
That's all for now,
Good night peoples!
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now it is your turn to update, phailure. :)
Monday, February 22, 2010
@ 12:56 AM
Dooms day is here in another 8 hours or so.
Dead.
Friday, February 19, 2010
@ 12:54 AM
Once again, I cancelled my FTT due to unforseen circumstances again,I have been retaking my TTT for like 6 times or so?
It is really so irritating because the availability of FTT is always more than 30 days after your TTT.
I ♥ today's driving because everything was rather smooth while on the road,
but I need to practice more for my directional change!
Did a bit of studying after getting home, which seems more like just reading through the notes because whenever i start looking at the notes, other thoughts started rushing in.
Man, this have to stop else I would fail!
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And my heart kept beating fast as the train approaches the destination.
Got everything done fast and fled as though I am committing a crime.
Though I got jelly-legged when I ran (because I don't want to be seen or else I don't know how I would react), my heart felt happy when I received a message to know that my mission have accomplished.
An exhausting and exciting way of expressing ♥, but I feel happy. :)
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I hope He have heard me, read me and would be answering me soon.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
@ 11:32 PM
Dear Jesus,
Bless me with the strength and strong mind to handle the current situation,
give me your protection to ensure that I am safe and have a great sense of security when I am alone.
clear of those negative thoughts i have for what is coming for me
and replace it with happy scenes in my mind to boost my confidence.
Just bless me with what I need, except for wealth and other nonsensical needs, for after having those strengths, I believe I would be able to strive hard for them.
give me your protection to ensure that I am safe and have a great sense of security when I am alone.
clear of those negative thoughts i have for what is coming for me
and replace it with happy scenes in my mind to boost my confidence.
Just bless me with what I need, except for wealth and other nonsensical needs, for after having those strengths, I believe I would be able to strive hard for them.
In your name, I pray.
Amen
Amen
@ 11:00 PM
everyone can be accepted, except me.
maybe due to many differences which caused this.
now I really don't know what am I to you.
now, even my future seems bleak, but I have to pull through.
whether or not I could
@ 1:38 AM
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!Those red packets I received this year is just not enough.
Gimme gimme more~ gimme more~ gimme gimme more~
geesh, I am just being stupid.
♥
I am trying my best to pull through everything now,
though I am prepared, there are still something in me which makes me feel uncertain.
I really need some sense of security and support,
maybe the way I accept things are different and tend to make others feel as though I didn't appreciate it.
I don't want to add anything to make things sounds more wrong now,
things are getting stressful enough.
♥
Don't worry about me, my friends.
I am fine! :)
However, if any unforseen mishap happened to me and I am gone forever,
don't be too upset because you have to be happy that I was once your friend!
I am not being suicidal, but just stating facts. Really really.
Good Night people
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
@ 12:26 AM
wow, this is my 100th post for this blog.Did a bit of spring cleaning today and headed out to Chinatown after that with my mum. Shopped around and bought some snacks, I don't think they are the goodies cause I am saving them for myself. Heehee.
Bought most of those stuffs we need fast as we were tired from all those cleanings.
My brain is still not in the studying mode yet, I just feel like slacking away,
maybe I am in the IT IS TIME TO ENJOY CNY mode.
Gosh, this is bad. Really bad..
Monday, February 08, 2010
@ 3:05 PM
Gosh, I got a C for my overall coursework grade for Marketing.I need to work super hard for this subject in hope that I will get a B, minimum.
Hopefully my brain would be ocean-sized and sponge everything that i study so that I can do very well for the last and final exams.
Miracle, please come knocking on my door soon.
Thank you! :)
Sunday, February 07, 2010
@ 12:27 AM
I really hate waking up early for school, especially on a Saturday morning, and it was for a test.
was lucky that i didn't even waste one minute to doze off during the paper and manage to complete it quite well except being stuck at a question
" What is your greatest achievement to date? "
it really beat me off track and i just skipped it.
Went out to Bugis with Mandy for some random shopping today,
had a bit of catching up done and shopped around before heading home.
This is something very crazy that I have done even though i am tired like some crap
freaked many of my friends out actually, but it made me laughed. :D
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I seriously do not understand why you are so uptight all this while,
Does being mature really means that much to you?
If that is so, I apologise that i cannot comply.
Either you don't really understand me or that you are demanding things which in me but of which I can't change to your wanted standard.
I am really tired of what you are thinking.
Maturity, Maturity and Maturity.
If you really cannot accept the way I am, so be it, find someone else and stop picking on me to make my life so miserable.
Go ahead and say that I was like this in the past, but do strangers really display SO MUCH of their inner self to you at the first meeting? Think about it.
If just a bit of things I did plainly out of fun is disgusting you that badly, I am sorry, I really do not know what is on your mind.
If you give all this comments because you want me to change or to get out from being like some fool or looking like some idiot, I appreciate it, but still, I need to be me sometimes too right?
I am really not good in expressing myself, I give up.
I want to be happy, I want to feel happy.
But times and again, you push me back into sadness, confusion, anger and frustration.
I appreciate that effort, thank you.
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I am really tired right now, both physically and mentally.
Good night people
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
@ 10:48 PM
It is really frustrating when you are trying to unwind from the long day of school and stress, someone come over to you and ask you something but either their pronunciation is very bad or that their directions are wrong.you tried to help them by looking at the thing but just couldn't make out what it means, you asked for further information and sound a bit impatient, that person started getting angry and shouting starts.
I really do not know the way around Singapore, my fault?
You read something which I cannot find on the map, my fault?
I ask you to ask people for directions to the destination when you reach the place, I am wrong?
I really don't know what I should do, it is always my fault.
Now all the anger is stucked in my throat, I think I would die young, with all these kind of things happening so frequently.
I guess I'd found the reason why I don't feel happy, but the fact is, I don't dare to feel happy. Reason being, even when I enjoyed and got happy to my heart's content, this house will suck every bit of my happiness away.
Therefore, I choose to hide away from any source of happiness if possible in case I feel upset, disappointed and empty again. Recovering from the pain is really tough.
Sometimes I really feel like ending all the pain myself instead of waiting for them to cease. I am really tired of suppressing these craps.
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