I get 1 year older on the 3rd September every year, but no one really remembers because no one really cares
Currently taking up photography as my hobby but I do not really dedicate much time to it, but I am still loving it
- A pet bunny
- Travel overseas early
- Get braces
- Get a Mini Cooper
it isn't the impact that occur on you that will amaze the people around you or yourself,
but the power and ability that you handle the problem that makes people amazed.
therefore, no matter what happens, just remember.
be strong in your mind, and nothing will be able to defeat you.
my friend, if you are reading this post,
do take care of yourself. I am just a phonecall away if you need someone to talk to.
religious beliefs really kills me because there is no linkage to the things which are happening around us, and if you can be able to change the perception from the past religion beliefs to a more specific and scientific based thinking, you will see that religion is just some tales, something people use to psycho themselves so that they can live their life in denial.
visiting a friend in the hospital is considered inauspicious because my granny just passed away for 3 years?
so what will happen to me, or rather, the family or the deceased?
why can't i visit people in the hospital?
i just don't understand.
demands given to me of finding pomelo leaves to wash my face before stepping into the house so as not to bring in the unlucky-ness from the hospital into the house.
if pomelo leaves can really change people's luck, then why is the plant still available untouched at the temple?
won't it be stolen by those hardcore superstitious folks or those who are die-hard fans of lottery?
fine, i really don't know.
being in a family which consists of 2 hardcore buddhist is already killing me.
so please stop asking me to believe in your religion or anything,
firstly, it won't be approved by my parents.
secondly, will it really bring about a change to me?
i just wish to stay who i am and all, and not to feel the pressure to change to become one of you.
i'd rather everything just go back to the start then to carry on if the barrier is due to beliefs, because i doubt that by changing my beliefs, everything will go smoothly and like what you read and heard from the elders.
getting someone who thinks the same way as you might be better i guess,
so neither you nor me would be affected by our thinkings.
also, it is better to heal the pain now then walk on further and fall, of which the pain would be unbearable.
therefore, i won't be involve in any religious things and as for my next generation,
i will give them the freedom to believe what they wish to believe.
being so hardcore really suffocates them and i never want them to go through what i am facing now. it is so terrible.
i really don't like being tied down to some religious beliefs.
i don't mean to offend anyone or anything,
but ultimately, you have to trust yourself first before trusting others.
to readers out there
if you are offended or anything by my opposition towards religious beliefs,
that is solely your problem because you chose to read my blog.
and as stated, this is MY BLOG, so i have the autonomy to just voice out what i want to say.
there is a tagboard for you if you really wish to comment or rant at me for not wanting to bring the religious thing forward to my child or whatsoever.
bye
you have this amazing power that can brighten up my day.
you are made of some special ingredient and the sweetness i will never get sick of no matter how many times i take you.
even if you are fattening, i will still continue having you everyday. (:
feel it!
need to study my Advance Driving book,
then book for my Final theory trial test so i can take my Final theory test ASAP.
read through Basic theory book again to prepare for Basic theory test and twist my fingers, twist my tongue, twist my legs, that i'll pass it.
thereafter, go for revisions classes and book for Traffic Police test.
and also, cross all the things which can be crossed to pray that i pass it so that i will obtain my license.
i am so rushy because..
SSDC IS SHIFTING OVER TO WOODLANDS DURING MARCH NEXT YEAR!
I DON'T WANNA TRAVEL THAT FAR FOR MY LESSONS!
THIS LEAVE ME WITH 5 MONTHS TO COMPLETE EVERYTHING!!
so Kamy, all the best to you.
you must do your best too and stop stalling your engine!
now i need to go to sleep now and then wake up tomorrow morning for work.
good night readers
i apologize sincerely for my behaviour,
it REALLY wasn't intentional, neither emotional.
but it was uncontrollable and IRRESISTABLE.
eventually, it got addictive! :D
gradually, you will understand.
thank you very much.
slept for like less than 6 hours for the past 2 nights. brilliant me.
it was a rather busy day for me today.
but well, this is what we have to do when faced with commitments.
family commitments.
thereafter, i headed over to SSDC to take my trial test, again..
this time round, i did it slowly and steadily.
look through the questions thoroughly,
halfway through, i even went blank in my head,
this went through my head: Am I concentrating? Hey Kamy, you are in your trial test! Come on, feel nervous. You want to fail it again?
GOSH!
and after i submitted the test, my results came out and it says:
YOU PASSED your trial test.
my results isn't anyhow whack one okay~ i got 47/50! :D
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my head is killing me, it's like going to burst already,
probably add on more tomorrow
or i will just write out EVERYTHING in my journal.
for those loyal readers (as if i have many), i am sorry,
you can break in to my house to steal that book if you want.
but i'd rather you come knocking on my door instead. (:
after 2 theory classes, had a break and went for the trial test.
didn't really read through the whole book and thought of going to just try my luck, and i didn't manage to pass, i only got 39/50. oh well..
left SSDC and wandered around.
saw some friends but they seem to either be avoiding me or hiding from me.
am i that scary?
as time was getting late, i went home sour home.
you taught me, and now i get to see things from another point of view.
you are not road hogging, because i am fine at your pace.
you need not do anything much, but i feel it, because it is all mutual.
for all this that you had did for me, you said:
IT was because, you are lame..
but well, i guess i shall update once in a while so that my blog wouldn't seem so deadly.
met up with Mr. Dude as i am going to sign up for driving,
it seems like i can get the license rather fast, but that is if i can cope well and also to be able to pass everything with one try.
after signing up, Mr. Dude and i pondered about what is the next stop that we are going, and finally made up our mind of going to Bishan since my dad went all insane to be shouting at me because i have been going out till late recently.
therefore, i have to control my timing and try to be home before 7pm, just to please that maddie old man, and thankfully, the transport system is so advanced in Singapore, from Bishan back to Sengkang to the LRT station of my home, it takes approximately 40 minutes only.
We had a lunch at Swensen's but it was really wasted because i still haven't recover from my flu and that totally sucks.
Mr. Dude then brought me around J8 and he didn't notice that we have been walking the same floor in circle for 3 times, guess he is just finding chance to exercise to burn off the calories from the Banana Split and the other ice cream ( i forgot the name of it).
headed back home while Mr. Dude left further crazy moments with his friends.
are you taking revenge
just you wait, don't you ever take a quiet tiget as a weak cat.
when the tiget gets angry, it bites...
just you wait..
it made me lose my appetite because when i eat and want to "taste" the food, i have to recall how it use to taste like, otherwise, it would feel as though you are chewing on rubber.
thereafter, you feel so gross about what you are eating, you vomit it all out again.
i hate this feeling very much
if my immunity to diseases is so low, i'd rather God take me along with him now,
then to let me stay here suffering all these for coming 1 month already.
it is killing me painlessly.
if i don't get well by tomorrow's noon, 7th September 2009, don't see me on Earth anymore.
i am serious.
I AM OFFICIALLY 18!
Firstly, thanks everyone who wished me on MSN, through sms, through Facebook and that Dude who wished me in any form he could wish me and every method, even face to face.
Thank you everyone!
Secondly, thanks my parents for making time to go for a dinner with me at Kim Gary's at Tampines 1, along with that Dude.
my dad was acting his usual, trying to act stern and all.
and i am really sorry about what my dad said and how he reacted when Dude gave him the cheese asparagus.
oh gosh, that total coldness at the dinner..
fortunately Dude didn't take it to heart and also, i must really thank that Dude for the dinner treat when it was supposed to be me paying for it since he is the guest.
what a gentleman.
Thirdly, congratulate that Dude for his passing of his frigging driving test which he was anticipating but scared, hopeless, faithless and helpless about.
so when Dude passed, he was totally elated, flabbergasted and all crazy that he floated to cloud 9, but he didn't stay up there long due to his weight.
and also, salute Dude for his courage to speak to daddy about taking me to town and promised him of sending me back home before 11pm, which my dad approved but the butterflies continued dashing madly in Dude.
Lastly, thanks Dude for the gift, which is also the first gift i received so far, and also to bring this Dudet who just turned 18 to Hard Rock Cafe for a Long Island Ice Tea, which is filled up to 1/2 when we drank to 1/4 full of the glass.
that bartender asked for our ID when Dude ordered and he stunned when he see my D.O.B. but he was really nice to give us peanuts, haw flakes and he gave me a shot of, i think is, Vodka? i couldn't tell cause i am down with blocked nose and everything is tasteless to me! GOSH!!
was all tipsy and light-headed as we walk over to Ion for the train back home, i kept laughing as we walk down the road.
gosh, we completely lose control of ourselves!
Dude kept his word and sent me to my doorsteps and then he hitched the cab which just drop off a passenger at the garage outside my house.
we are both safe and sound back home but still all tipsy after a bath and some hot tea.
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1.that attention seeking Helium balloon.
2. the gift and letter in the bag
and the day of me being officially 18, ended. blissfully & all tipsy :)
P.S: don't fault me for any grammar mistakes, i am trying my best to type properly. thanks
catched a movie, The Proposal, with Creep earlier in the evening.
more like a comedy than a love story.
can't say it's the best, but at least it isn't the worst.
headed home after the movie :)
YOU'D BETTER HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF,
PUT IN YOUR BEST EFFORT IN EVERYTHING YOU DO!
NOTHING IS YOUR BIGGEST BARRIER EXCEPT YOURSELF.
all the best to you :)
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
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