♥ Kamy.R

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About me

I am Kamy, while Reily is actually a made up name
I get 1 year older on the 3rd September every year, but no one really remembers because no one really cares
Currently taking up photography as my hobby but I do not really dedicate much time to it, but I am still loving it

wishlist

- Learning Korean
- A pet bunny
- Travel overseas early
- Get braces
- Get a Mini Cooper

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

@ 11:05 AM

Heading off to sign my 'contract' with the F1 Grand Prix soon,

thereafter, I would be an official personnel of the upcoming F1 event! :D

I want to pass my upcoming driving test as well, so I can start training to be the next F1 driver.

hurhur, me and my imaginative mind again.

Bye for now peoples!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

@ 12:21 AM

today was a bitter-sweet,

but tomorrow is gonna be long and dreadful...

this is my life.

Monday, August 23, 2010

@ 9:52 PM

you can say that you rather die than tolerating all these pain,

going crazy because you see no cure for it.

your heart is heavy...

claim that you do not know how to reply to a one word message.

how about me?

I shared how i felt after making the decision, I regretted, I apologised and I waited.

yes, my decision tormented you. it didn't do me any good either.

I expressed concerns and tried to make the cold messages a livelier one,

but what did I get in return? another colder reply...

do you want me to continue acting as though I am an idiot and reply in a stupid manner again?

you never told me how you were thinking, all you did was tell me how tired and affected you were by that decisions. other than leaving you alone to 'recuperate', what do you want me do?

Giving me the same treatment and pain I gave you. Are you trying to revenge me?

I have been putting on a facade in front of friends and even my family,

just because I do not wish to be pushed with questions of why I made this decision because....

I really really regretted and is suffering a lot from it already. Thus, I do not want more questions to be making me feel worst.

I do not feel too good, but how should I seek escape?

I lost some part of me, but where should I seek the lost?

This life is getting boring and exhausting, can I give it up as well?

Sunday, August 22, 2010

@ 12:15 AM

I am so lame today.

Gosh, can't tolerate myself either.

Good night world ♥

Saturday, August 21, 2010

@ 12:13 AM

Had this job training at T-box today.

It was quite easy and I find the job quite fun, maybe because the products' packaging are very interesting.

Or rather, Huimin was there to assist me in things I am not sure in and we talkcockchitchat our time away.

She kept telling me:

" Attitude and temper can be changed.

Don't give up so easily, you got to give the both of you a chance.

A chance for you to change and for him to wait for the change, to help you along the way.

Giving up won't make anything better, you need him beside you in order for you to change because he is the reason why you are trying to change for the better.

Keep him by your side so that you would feel motivated.

Nice guys are hard to find these days, must learn to cherish him.

In a relationship, it is not nice to break & patch because

it would weaken the 'bond' between the both of you...

You are selfish in this relationship,

you got to ask him how he feel.

Sms/Call him now to tell him that you sorted out your thinkings already and hope that he would be there with you to push you to change."

Though she might be younger than me, I think that her thinkings are more matured than mine, in fact, the other friend I turned to also told me almost the same thing.

That's you, Mandy Teo.

You helped me by being the messenger between us and replied to my messages, reading all those craps and consistently giving me advices despite being busy or tired.

You are such a good buddy, someone like a sister. Thank you. :')

And you better stop smoking!

As I had promised him, I shall not disturb him this few days because my decision had tortured him too much and made him feel so down, I do not want to be so selfish to make any personal decisions anymore. I wouldn't want to force him into things he do not want to do.

I should start sparing a thought for him, I should really put myself in his shoes and feel how he feel.

I will keep him in my heart. I miss him..

Good night.

Monday, August 16, 2010

@ 12:19 AM

竟然选择放手，为何心还会隐隐作痛？

平时的矛盾变成现在的难过。

只要我们向前走，相信这些痛都会慢慢消失。

我的却是一个很难搞，很难相处的女生。

希望你能够着到一个比我好的对象，并过得更好。

请保重。

Saturday, August 14, 2010

@ 10:15 PM

I am a problematic and difficult girl.

I can't tolerate another moment fighting with my internal thoughts and emotions anymore,

I don't want to spend another moment telling myself that I am being too negative,

I don't want to prepare myself being disappointed due to another fake hope,

I don't want to waste another moment trying to argue my points out,

I don't want to be so unhappy in this relationship anymore.

I am tired already.

But I just don't know what I should do..

Should I stay or let it go?

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

@ 11:49 PM

it was an exciting day for me today.

woke up around 9am and waited for my slowpoke to come over to my place so that we could go jogging together.

The route i suggested to him couldn't satisfy him, so we 'GoogleMap' the perimeters, found another route which satisfies him, agreed and went on our journey.

After our warm-up round, he spotted the 50 storey blocks and decided to explore the area. Jogged around and then he suggested stairs climbing all the way up to the 50th storey.

It was extremely crazy, i swear.

From the 7th storey all the way till the 36th or so, I thought I was going to die.

But..... I MADE IT TO THE 50TH STOREY! YAY!

The air up there was so much fresher, we can't enter the garden but a small view of the city make me feel that my work out was worth it. :D

was awarded some weird astronaut food by my slowpoke.

freeze-dried ice cream

don't dare to try it yet though, not sure if the expiry could wait for my courage to come or not.

thereafter, I went to collect my YOG uniform and goodie bag. I was given a DBS Visa card which can be used as an EZ-link card, and know what? I have free train and bus ride from 10th August till 28th August. But I am not very sure who will the bill be charged to if I use the Visa. :|

&& My slowpoke turned into a slug after all those work-outs. Tsk tsk

That is all for now,

looking forward to the next work-out. :)

good night y'all ♥

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tell me everything

Don't see a need for it since no one is reading me anyways

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don't leave yet

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time