♥ Kamy.R

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Saturday, December 18, 2010

@ 11:50 PM

Been sleeping more than half of my day away after taking my stomach flu's medication.

I've decided not to eat it anymore because everytime after I wake up, I would feel out of the world, as though I am in dream land. I don't like that feeling. I'd rather continue puking than to feel out of the world, seriously.

Anyway, I finished editing Mandy's wedding video, like finally. Hopefully she will like it. :)

I am so looking forward to meeting my boyfriend tomorrow! Actually we could meet yesterday, but due to my bad tummy and drowsiness, I stayed home to rest. Disappointed much.

Tied my hair into 2 buns (As learnt from Xiaxue's post), hopefully my hair would turn out that nice as hers tomorrow when I meet my boyfriend. heehee. :)

Good bye all.

Friday, December 17, 2010

@ 1:55 AM

Penned on the 16th December 2010

Hello people,

I am back to blogging after very long. Sorry but I was really busy with my school work and such.

Well, just thought that I should mark this day so I popped by Blogger.

Please pardon my grammar errors and punctuation. At this time of the day, my mind doesn't function that well.

Had my proficiency test today, which consists of Table Setting, Serving and Clearing of table.

I am glad that there were no major mistakes, but a few errors here and there which cause my marks to be deducted.

Thereafter, I showered the gel off my hair and rushed off for my Law presentation. Of which my group was presenting about the sale of body parts and I was suppose to give points of why it should not be legalized.

Tutor's comment for my group was positive and feedback to me was that she was surprised when I stood out and started speaking off the slides without cue cards and I wasn't nervous nor showing that I purely wanted to get everything over and done with when presenting.

Actually the fact is, I was just too lazy to write the cards. :P

I am really glad that these 2 major things are over rather smoothly despite me not feeling well since yesterday night due to stomach flu (as said by friends after hearing my symptoms).

Hopefully it would go away soon else it really feels crappy to be puking everything that you ate and the force from your stomach was so impactful that it cause your back to hurt..

Anyway, today is a new beginning of life for me. I'm officially free now. :)

(friends who are curious could text me to ask)

Lastly, I am really quite sad as I felt as though I have lost a friend whom I somehow used to turn to when I have any problem.

I do not know how this person sees me now but somehow I would associate what this person tweets, to me. I know that I am being very imaginative though it was already so long since the incident.

Previously, I would just look up this person's name in my contact and send a SMS freely without thinking that much, however, after those incidents, this person seems to be avoiding me.

It is obvious and this person told me the reason to such actions.

After hearing the reasons, I felt very bad because I am not aware that I had crossed that line.

I do not know what is so amazing about me, I hope that if I could reverse time, I would like to make myself a little worst so at least I could still retain this friendship.

Now, whenever I look up my contact and sees this person's name, I feel very guilty.

I really hope that I could bring time back when we were still acquaintances because at least we still share problems, we can talk on the phone for hours, talking crap, laugh and make fun of one another.

I have already very minimal amount of friends who can hear me pour my heart out.

I used to have them, but they are all gone.

I admire people who have plenty of friends to hang out with.

I really don't know how to treat people.

I am afraid of being disliked but I am also afraid of having the opposite approach from the opposite gender.

I really don't know what I should do.

I really don't want to lose anymore friends.

But I know,

I am just human. No matter how hard I try, I cannot change anything that is beyond my will.

Thus, I will put this all in God's hand. Allow that friend which I said above to have a lighter heart, allow that person to regain the usual cheerfulness. If possible, I would gladly pray that friend to accept me as a friend once again, as an acquaintance like how we used to be is fine as well.

I am truly saddened to see friends becoming strangers.

God, I believe you can work miracle.

I can see them, I feel them.

Please help me once again.

Glory to God in the Highest.

Amen

Good night people