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Monday, January 30, 2012

@ 11:22 PM

Trust

On one hand, I managed to gain the trust of a friend who was really down and I was there at the right time to give her advise and to comfort her from her negativity. And I am glad that my genuine self has gained me something.

On the other hand, I met a friend whom I have known for a while and I treated him like a true friend and share my problems with him freely.

I understand that I should not be expecting too much but I thought he would open up to me a little over time instead of being overly protective of himself.

With so much tries and very simple (unforceful nor intrusive) attempts, I still failed.

Guess that just tell me to not trust too easily and I need to step back from where I was and if the friendship from this friend isn't genuine, then I shall not step in too much either.

Though I feel kind of stupid and like an idiot to contribute one-sidedly, I just need to get used to it, since I have many awesome friends around me.

I have nothing to lose, cause I lose nothing in the first place...

He is just not blessed enough to have me as a friend.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

@ 11:58 AM

Most of the people around me should know that I actually have been complaining about my two lower front teeth being crooked and it is kinda irritating to me cause I kept fiddling with it and I want to get it fixed.

After all those internal emotional conflict, I finally booked an appointment with Bright Dental to start on the term for my braces.

I went to their clinic today for my consultation and the dentist quoted me $2k (inclusive of X-rays, consultation, metal placing, etc) as he see that only my lower row of teeth needs fixing.

So they started on cleaning my teeth, taking the impression (putting some kinda clay thing into your mouth to make a mould to see how your teeth initially looks like) and take picture of me before the placement of the braces. It felt kinda weird cause they ask me not to smile and then look to my right to take the picture, like taking picture of the criminal. O_O

Teeth Impression Mould

They did a polish of my teeth for me and then inserted the separator in between my teeth so that my teeth would be separated and would be ready for insertion of the band for the braces next week.

Spot the separators in between my teeth!

I can has even beautiful smile after I do my braces!!

I have set another appointment with the dentist on the 17th Jan to do the placing of the metal braces. This is really fast and I will be metal teeth for CNY! Hahaha~

Hopefully that wouldn't make me stubborn (metal teeth in hokkien means stubborn) while I have the metals.

Bye people!!

Oh yes, I cut my own fringe to bangs cause the long fringe makes me untidy.

@ 11:43 AM

Weird dreams

Hello there, yes I understand that I have always been sharing about those weird dreams that I have. I feel rather queer as well, like why am I always having those weird dreams.

Okay, yesterday I dreamt that I was cycling and the weird thing is, I feel as though the sit was really high. As in my point-of-view when I am on the bike is really from a very high level and it sometimes get quite hard to control the bike. Then it gets harder to cycle because the hind wheel was deflated and I had to pump it up again to cycle.

Well actually, on several occasions when I dream of myself driving, the point-of-view is always very very high. Taking for example when I remember myself to be driving a car, it would eventually be changed into me driving a construction-site's kinda truck, how crazy is that?!

Then another scenario is when I remember I was cycling, then suddenly I was on the truck again, then suddenly my point-of-view is as high as the LRT track and it got so wobbly that I fell off the bike and poof, I woke up in shock...

I guess that is the reason why I have very serious aerophobic.

Next, I dreamt of many people whom I knew but never really contacted anymore and then we started chatting a lot. Suddenly out of no where, my ex-boyfriend appeared and started chatting with me, however, I started getting all negative with him and hurl hurtful remarks at him, I forgot the reason really but I was also that random in reality when we were together, always throwing tantrum at him over nothing or very minor stuffs. Childish I am.

But the strange thing is, irregardless of what I say to him or how I scolded him, he still stay there with me, he even wanted to walk with me when I tried to shun him.

His actions just hurt me terribly and all I wanted is for him to continue walking and stop pausing to wait for me to catch up with him.

I just want him to move on, even in reality, because I would not want him to turn back to me and get hurt by me again.

Well, these are the most vivid dreams that I can remember amongst all others which I had throughout the night.

Bye people~

Saturday, January 07, 2012

@ 2:51 AM

I had a really weird dream yesterday nigh, or rather quite early in the morning I guess.
It was about my friends and I having lunch in one scene, then later there was this two kids (a girl and a boy) who were really cute so my friends thought of trying out our old school camera, if I didn't remember wrongly, it was film camera.
Then the two kids were being really helpful in modeling for the shots.

Halfway while other friends were brought around the shop house to look around, that little boy started talking to me romantically and then asked me if I wanna try kissing him. It was kinda weird cause that boy was super young, probably 9-10 years old? But he is pretty charming for his age.

Okay the problem is, we really started kissing passionately and almost went to the bed...
Well, my friends suddenly came back looking very shocked and disgusted by me.
Then I heard a very soft shout of my name which sounds like my mum but kinda like a very far distance one and it made my subconscious mine thought that it's in reality (the shouting of my name) so I woke up from my dream.

Well I do have fantasy or have fetish for cute and decent guys but definitely not to the extend of liking a little boy :(
Seiously do not know why I'm having such weird dream and well, the other days hasn't been too well either. I dreamt of my father and he was disciplining me, totally freaks me out cause I swear I don't think of him very often.

Must look at more hot guy's photos so they will appear in my dreams. Aww man, how nice would that be if it comes true.